My life as it is now is something I’ve wanted for a long time. I have prayed fervently for this moment hoping it would come and wondering when that would be and exactly what that would look like. Now that its here I really haven’t embraced the change. You see for a few years now I have wanted nothing more than to be able to stay home and sell vintage, craft, take care of the house and have a nice dinner ready for my sweet husband when he gets home. Now that I have all of that at my fingertips I find myself struggling physically and emotionally. Completely changing the same routine after six years is not as easy as I thought it would be. I remember walking down the halls at my old office wondering if I would ever NOT be doing what I was doing. Thinking there was no light at the end of the tunnel. I find myself battling a depression of sorts… wanting someone to visit with, to talk to and trying to get used to the solitude.
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Have any of you struggled with this kind of change in your life? How did you cope? It’s hard not to give myself a long list of things to do everyday then beat myself up for not completing them all. It’s definitely time to end the pity party and rejoice in the fact that God saw this time as perfect for me to begin a new journey.