Mended Heart...

Let me tell you a little story of how my heart was broken this weekend. I'll start by saying I have baby fever...BAD. If there is one thing I was put on this earth to do it is be a mother. Ryan and I are finally at a place where we are ready to start trying and fully rely on God to bless us with a family so my emotions are a little crazy at the moment.

Last Thursday when I got home from work I found a scruffy little puppy in my backyard. He was kinda mean and covered in fleas but oh so cute. I decided instantly I wanted to foster him out to a good home but in my heart I wanted to add him to our family. Logically I didn't think keeping the little guy was an option as we already have four pets... I get crazy looks from people when I tell them this so what would they think if I had five?

After a bath and some cuddles he was a new pup and since a cold front came in we just reported him with the lost pet hotline and went to bed. The next day at work I asked around if anyone was interested in adopting the little guy with not much luck. We spent the evening hanging out and as time went on I felt my heart open up to his sweet little face. Saturday morning we took him to the vet to see if he was microchipped which he wasn't and Dr. M was nice enough to give him his shots a bath and some flea meds. We were informed that he is a Yorkiepoo around three to five years old. As Saturday passed I rather enjoyed his company while I cleaned and hung out in my craft room. Feeling like something needed me that was so small just melted my heart and I was really hoping that we would just keep him as we had no takers.

{He kinda looked like this}

All the while I was secretly getting attached I was trying to stay logical...asking myself if I would still want him if I were to get preggers and things of that nature. Could we even afford to have a fifth pet on our vet bill? Later that day our neighbors across the street decided to give him a trial run to see if their sweet daughter could handle the responsibility and that's when my heart broke... I knew it would be a great place for the little guy but in my heart he was already mine. A few days later and the trial is over and now sweet Benny (as they have named him) has an amazing family to shower him with love and attention.

All week I have been trying to fill a baby sized hole in my heart with a puppy... It has been really difficult and to those of you without animals I know I might sound CRAZY! I have prayed for God to mend my heart and for His will to be done in my life and He has answered...after all He IS faithful. In time I will receive the desires of my heart and I will have a little one to care for and love, I have four sweet pets that love me and life is good. Thanks for listening because there is something therapeutic about writing it all out. It's all in His perfect timing...